I have mixed emotions knowing this pregnancy is almost over. I have thought a lot about my good friends who have recently lost their pregnancies and the sadness, frustration, and pain that all brings with it. I have thought about my two good girlfriends, who I consider my sisters, whose struggle with infertility seems lifelong. I think about Corey Lawton and his courageous struggle with cancer. He really fought the good, long fight. I know God welcomed him with open arms... I know Scott misses him tremendously. Hopefully this little Corey will develop the same courage if life hands him struggles, which it will. We all have them. I think about my aching back, lack of sleep, heartburn, weight gain, and the whole lot of it with different perspective. I will miss feeling this little boy inside me. The hiccups, the kicks in the ribs, the elbow jabs. I am grateful to have the chance to be a mom, 4 times over. I can't wait to meet this little one. I hope he can't wait to meet me.
